The theories of biochemistry have taught me this much:
The enzyme binds to receptors on an organism. The catalytic receptors are created perfectly to only fit to that specific enzyme, the enzyme created solely for that receptor. The organism does not fully function without the presence of the enzyme. It fails if that enzyme is inhibited.
You were my enzyme, time has inhibited your effect on me.
(Source: omisaidit)
Just that one person whose side you never want to leave.
With them, nothing else matters.
The world around you ceases to exist and you enter a world of eternal euphoria
(Source: omisaidit)
Society would have us believe that “giving up” is a definite portrayal of cowardliness, weakness, lack of drive, etc.
I find that to be quite disturbing.
“Letting go” seems to be more appropriate. It’s not that you are weak or incapable of completing a task, or goal, or following through with a certain situation, it’s simply the acknowledgment that you have no use, no benefit, no purpose in continuing on in whatever pursuit.
I find that to be something admirable.
The ability to acknowledge and defend one’s decision to suspend a goal or task or whatever, is something very few people possess.
It’s a portrayal of strength and confidence, not incompetency.
Maybe I’m just saying all this because I feel like I’m in this exact situation. I tend to defend my own decisions in this manner and always go directly for the positives.
So, I’ll say it. I am letting go. I see no point in me continuing to labor on and exert so much effort when all I receive is petty hostility. I promised myself that this year I would put myself first, and I will not default on that promise.
At times you’ll feel like you have a very good understanding of a certain person; you’ll have known them for quite some time, have talked to them to a great extent, have learned the inner most secrets of their life. But, by one action, one thing, that all changes. Just by one utterance, the person who you thought you knew very well becomes a complete stranger.
I want to grow up with you.
I want to experience with you.
I want to live with you.
I want to take risks with you.
I want to propose to you.
I want to marry you.
I want to have kids with you.
I want to be up long nights with you.
I want to build a home with you.
I want to celebrate with you.
I want to dance with you.
I want to retire with you.
I want to laugh with you.
I want to grow old with you.
I want to die with you.
- Me: I feel like I lost my virginity to the wrong person.
- Hira Rizvi: LOLOL Man, so did i
- This is what our lives have come to
I honestly don’t know how to approach attractive people.
Oh and when I see someone I feel attracted to, I always have to be with my sister(s), it is so annoying.
I guess I’m destined to never approach someone ahah
You managed to make me smile uncontrollably again tonight, even after everything. you still manage to make me feel the butterflies. I just don’t know what to do with myself.
I started loving the things I hated because you love them…
I stared loving the things I hated because I love you.
There is something I’ve realized today. You control your emotions; yes, you do. Of course there are external factors which shape the emotional outcomes you may possibly experience, but in the end it is you. I know this because I have experienced this very recently and am currently experiencing it. Sure I’ve dealt with the pain of failure in the past, or the loss of a loved one, or the joyous pain of having a loved one move on in their life, but the rush of emotions experienced during and after the conclusion of an intimate “relationship,” for a lack of better words, is something completely different. Your heart wrenches at the thought of not having that person, it is pure agony, but why do we allow ourselves to feel that agony? I have an example, any time in my academic career that I have failed at something or my projected plans have been altered due to a certain falling of mine, I have always looked at the next steps, the evolved ramifications, the new method to achieving the end goal. You may wonder why I have always done this, but it’s because I’ve realized that my career goals are my life goals and I need to treat them in a way that yields highest of results. If I dwell on a failure or hindrance, I will be wasting valuable time that could’ve been spent creating a solution or reconfiguring my plans.
Similarly this applies to the complexities of the heart. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t dwell on the past, on the memories, on the conversations, but then I realized that I needed to change my outlook on the situation. I dealt with it as a logical issue, if I experienced heartache from this situation then my heart has been conditioned to experience this in the future, if need be. I may sound like a machine or robot, bringing in logic with the issues of the heart, but it’s relevant. People dwell and dwell over heartache and that only causes more heartache. Lingering memories can be viewed as reflections of a better yesterday or a foreshadowing of a brighter future. You control how you view the past and it’s events; hence, you control the emotions you associate with certain situations. Of course you can’t control the feelings of intimacy you have towards a person because those tend to develop on their own, but you do control how you perceive those feelings in the aftermath.
To play devil’s advocate I’ll even say that you do have the capability to determine who you fall in love with. For instance, you have a close friend of 15 years, you love them as a friend, you revere their qualities, but they are just your friend. Now, look at that same person, but through the lens of a life partner. Could you spend your life with them? Could you fall in love with them? Your emotional and mental proximity is already close due to the nature of your friendship, try mixing in intimacy? Is the chemistry there? You may just surprise yourself. They say best friends make the best life partners. I see so much truth in that.
Well I guess I just felt like spewing my heart out about how happy I am that I’m looking at things in a different light, but I will say the experience of grief and sorrow is one not to shun away. Every person needs to experience heartache, it only makes you value true love even more.
It makes me jealous
I used to think you were the best thing that could ever happen to me, now I’m thinking you were the worst.
