You should have known that this would happen, it always happens.
When they need you they come running to you, but when they don’t they make excuses.
excuses, excuses, and some more excuses.
Just that one person whose side you never want to leave.
With them, nothing else matters.
The world around you ceases to exist and you enter a world of eternal euphoria
(Source: omisaidit)
Society would have us believe that “giving up” is a definite portrayal of cowardliness, weakness, lack of drive, etc.
I find that to be quite disturbing.
“Letting go” seems to be more appropriate. It’s not that you are weak or incapable of completing a task, or goal, or following through with a certain situation, it’s simply the acknowledgment that you have no use, no benefit, no purpose in continuing on in whatever pursuit.
I find that to be something admirable.
The ability to acknowledge and defend one’s decision to suspend a goal or task or whatever, is something very few people possess.
It’s a portrayal of strength and confidence, not incompetency.
Maybe I’m just saying all this because I feel like I’m in this exact situation. I tend to defend my own decisions in this manner and always go directly for the positives.
So, I’ll say it. I am letting go. I see no point in me continuing to labor on and exert so much effort when all I receive is petty hostility. I promised myself that this year I would put myself first, and I will not default on that promise.
At times you’ll feel like you have a very good understanding of a certain person; you’ll have known them for quite some time, have talked to them to a great extent, have learned the inner most secrets of their life. But, by one action, one thing, that all changes. Just by one utterance, the person who you thought you knew very well becomes a complete stranger.
I just want to take the time out to tell you guys how much I really love you all.
We may not talk, or maybe talk very little, but through your posts and through the simple act of following me, you all have created a sense of community and importance in my life. I’m not one who has stable friendships, I drift apart from people who I once thought meant the world to me, but through all that this site has given me a constant sense of support!
So thank you! :) <3
I’ve been sitting on this stupid creaky old bed in this dingy old apartment since 8 o’clock thinking about how shitty my life has become, how much I would’ve hated myself, last year, had I known this is who I would become, pretending to talk to people who know me, but then again I don’t even know who I am. Am I a just a conglomerate of people’s wants and expectations? I guess that is what I am.. every person sees me with a different lens, a different shade, a different perspective. I am never me, I am just what people wish to see. In this pursuit to become what I am expected to be, I have lost who I should be, who I ought to be. A person grows up with expectations posed by society and his or her family, then he/she enters the work force and conforms to those norms, then he/she enters the institution of marriage and “symbolically” unites with his or her life partner who molds him/her into his/her ideal, children rob away the little individuality that is left in that person, and conclusively that person dies with a grave stone which bears a list of titles given to him or her by society.
The prized life of a human being.
I used to think you were the best thing that could ever happen to me, now I’m thinking you were the worst.
Holy shit.
The amount of blatant cockiness here on Tumblr is really, really striking.
I don’t know if it has to do with this altered sense of reality people conjure up through their blogs or if it’s just innate, but it really has got to stop.
I see people straight up telling others that they are better than them, higher than them, at greater intellectual stratum than them.
And these aren’t stupid teenagers, these are people well into their twenties.
Rant complete. :)
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on a side note, my upper chest area randomly started bleeding, I have no idea why.
freaky.
Some people come in your life for a long period of time, but have no impact on you, others come in your life for a little while, but change you forever; for me, that was you.
I’ve come across a lot of blogs that are run by people who try to come off as nice people who believe everyone has their own individual worth and yada yada, but then they get one anonymous message critiquing them, or saying something awkward and BAM that whole facade of respecting people and crap diminishes and you see the shallow, self-centered egotist that they actually are…
Just a rant I felt like I needed to do.
